Tonight I refreshed my memory on why I'm doing all this, immersing myself into lecture notes hoping that the information will jump from paper to brain.
I don't think I've wanted something so badly (other than getting the UWC scholarship which I almost fulfilled).
I'm realistic, based on what I've done and all, I can't expect to do well for CTs2. But no matter how people say these CTs are a good indication of where you stand etc, I'm not going to believe such rubbish.
So for the next 6 months, every time I open notes/tutorials/past year papers, I know where I want to go, I know how to get there, and I'm going to push myself to get there.
Sometime, you can surprise yourself, all you need is that small hope.
Because I want it so so badly.
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